Charles Kurniawan

Hmm.. my mind has not work well recently… I can’t concentrate to think… my brain is wasted by those chinese letter that I might not using it later on.. Duh! … (Dont ask me why I go to china in the first place) …

Well exam end up sucks.. Im the last person coming out from the room … well the first person got out is not that smart also.. he messed up as well hehehehe…

But hey!! Finally I finished my exam … and now … Yay!! im free for the moment… i decided to give my self a break to travel around … but .. wait a minute … isnt i already in break here all these time.. i didnt really study and im having fun all the time with my friend … Duh!! Be serious be serious!!!

Ok.. I try to updated my mind with some CNN news now.. hmm let see what I got.. oil price hit the peak, John Walton(Walmart owner) died in plane crash(left his $18 Billion), and an obesity baby born… hmm what is this information for anyway… but hey …today I learned a lesson of life… It tell me that I suck at tennis!! why?! dunno… I just suck!…

Checked my email and ended up knowing that I just made a girl cry.. Gosh!

Argh my mind really not working well … I should stop write this blog before I messed up your mind too hehehehehe

Dang, tomorow is final test!!

Why in the hell I still have time to even write this blog!

Stop it Charles!! Back to study!!

DONK!

kamu pernah ga kerasa kalo semua ini berjalan cepet sekali … ga kerasa … lama lama rasa e tiap taon itu berjalan cepet sekali .. saking cepet e kadang kerasa kaget, woa kemana aja aku selama ini… ngapain aja??!!,

dan juga sering kerasa… aduuh sayang yaa udah buang segitu banyak … sehingga tambah takut lagi, kalo di masa depan dengan waktu yang sangat pendek ini .. bakal spend kaya gini lagi …

dan akhirnya kamu jadi stop dan berpikir lagi …

apa yang mesti aku lakuin… apa aja yang belum ku lakukan … dan apa aja yang selama ini aku tunda tunda…

akhirnya aku jadi tiap hari di kejar ama perasaan ini dan tubuhku rasa e jadi restless, do anything i could, jalan sejauh kakiku masih mampu melangkah …

stay away from my appartment go outside and be around with people I care and love… play around with them and shared with them …

hmmm kaya aku udah mo mati aja besok huehuehue tapi maksudku

there is a beauty saat kita menghidupi hidup dan hari hari kita seakan akan ga ada hari esok lagi with people we love…

Have it occurred to you that one day you just sit and have a time wondering what is this life all about, what is going on, and more important question is what am I here for, but still find it difficult to get the answer that make you please. You keep searching for the answer but you don’t even know where to begin with or how. Lots of people giving up looking for the answer and walk in under other people’s shadow. Wasting their most valuable asset (time) doing anything like most drifter do without having direction and destination. Until their time has come and realize how pity that they waste their life for nothing…  And all they have done is merely survival skill to continue to keep alive.. becoming a drifter…

This case was never been to me until now.. I used to have a clear vision about my goal. It just like that I always know what to do, what to achieve and what things that can make me please. And funny thing is I used to feel sorry to those who drift through their life. Those whom throughout their life are so caught up with the present moment that they seem incapable of seeing the consequences of their action… I always thought that their drifting will finally took them in a very specific direction: destruction…  but maybe most of them are well sufficient in financial or leaning on their family wealth so they don’t need to be that thoughtful… anyway, suddenly, somehow I became one of them. It is not that I lost or forgot my purpose but I just don’t have any desire toward it anymore… where is my compassion and commitment? Where do they go? No, oh no I don’t want to be like this … it feel so empty so clueless… bored and confused!!!…

You know recently I think to myself that maybe… just maybe… that life is really have no purpose after all… it just happened like that… could be by accident or by the snap of God finger, but it doesn’t really matter anyway… I dont think that our life is suddenly changing after you know it, isnt it?? maybe those whom drifting were right.. and I was the foolish that always tried to dig to find a treasure that never been exist …

well in this meaningless life, I know you knew, there will be a time when you felt bored and confused.. but sometimes or somewhere or somehow you can experience or find something interesting to do while you are still alive.. like I experienced my first kiss, roller coaster ride, or like I found this blog to share and like I found you, my friend…